I don't even know where to start.
I did not expect to start the year off like this.
Maybe I never got the assurance I needed. The proof that what has happened is it. I want to believe so bad, but how without proof or assurance?
In the end it will all be worth it, but the end is so far away. How do I get by until then?
How do I know it will be okay? How do I know that everything will be okay?
I don't know how to do this.. how to make it. I do what I can but I feel like its not enough. :/ maybe I just really care this time.
Even tho time home happens, it doesn't make the leaving any easier. I try so hard to be okay, but I'm not quite sure I am.
How does this work? How can I be okay? How can I carry about alone for temporary?